It's a fact. Chemo stinks. I've been so sick since Monday! Pain, upset stomach, mouth sores, weird taste, you name it I've had it!
I've been staying in bed most of the time. I'm trying to help around the house and do things with the kids, but I'm useless. Sometimes it's painful for me to even walk! The house of course is a mess, but I don't even have the energy to think about it let alone do something about it.
I know I have to be patient, but I don't know how much more I can take of this. I know I should be glad that I'm half way there, but three more times of this doesn't sound so exciting to me anymore. The thought that I have a surgery coming up right after chemo is not so thrilling either. It takes a long time to recover, and it takes a while to get used to the new "you".
I know now that I'll have to have radiation too, so who knows when (and if) I'm going to be out of the woods. It's a long process and I'm already tired. It's just so disheartening.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
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I know what you are going through, but don't give up! Yes, you will be more tired yet with radiation - take advantage of the opportunity to "rest," but don't give up! When I was halfway through my brachytherapy (internal radiation), I thought about calling the nurses and telling them to remove the posts - I didn't care what happened to me. And then I thought about my little niece who weighed 2 pounds at birth. I thought about how hard she struggled to live, and it motivated me to keep going! There is light at the end of the tunnel - it is just sometimes difficult to see it.
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