Unfinished Business

Like clockwork, I go to bed at 9:00 pm, which is 12:00 am in Ohio, wake up at 3:00 am, so 6:00 am my time, then read for a few hours until I get tired and sleep again a couple more.

If I have learned anything all these years that I have been struggling with sleep, it's not to fret about it anymore. I get as much sleep as I can, whenever I can get it and since I started following this rule I have been just fine. I used to be so worried about getting enough sleep and being able to wake up, that the anxiety alone prevented me to relax and close my eyes. I know better now. I sleep when I can, I wake up when I have to, I do whatever is needed to be done and I take naps if I get tired. Perfect!

It’s almost 4:00 am now, I already read my book for about an hour, and I don’t feel like going back to sleep. I don’t know if we have any plans for today, but I was thinking I would like to finish one of my cross stitch projects that I have been working on for ages.
It’s a wedding anniversary sampler that, I kid you not, I think it must be cursed! How else can anyone explain that every single time I start working on it, something happens and I get in a fight with Brian. I think the safest bet is to finish it while we’re apart, and then burn it in order to cleanse the bad spirits or something! Ha! I’ll try to post a picture before I decide what I’m going to do with it.

I have so many unfinished projects and so little time, not to mention energy, to do anything about them. I do like collecting them though. I have so many patterns it would probably take me 3 lifetimes to finish them all, and you know what, that’s just fine by me. I like collecting them and looking at them, sorting them and making CD ROMs where everything is categorized and indexed. Sometimes I think about how nice they would look if I ever finished any of them, but I know that I’ll never find the time. So what’s the harm in that? None, I dare say.

I don’t feel inadequate for not doing it, at least not anymore! I decided long ago I should call myself a collector, and be proud of it too! Like I need more things in my life to feel bad about... I won’t turn my hobbies into nightmares, no sir! LOL!! Every now and then I’ll take some of my unfinished projects out, air them, maybe even add a stitch or two and then nicely fold them and put them back to where they came from.

So this is how life goes on these days. I feel no pressure and I try to live and taste the small moments. There’s always something to learn behind every corner, something to collect, and I want to make good use of my time, without really caring about how much of it I have left.

Works for me!