It’s 7:45 am. All three kids have gone to school and B to work. I sit on my bed and breathe in the silence in the air. What an incredible feeling! For years now I’ve always had at times the youngest of my kids around my skirt. This is the first time that they all go to school.
I don’t know what to do with my new found freedom. Many things have already crossed my mind. I think about maybe volunteering at the hospital, at least this is my top preference for now, but then I second guess myself. Is it too soon to be in an environment full of sick, sometimes dying people? It hasn’t been that long since I considered myself one of them. So I think, and rethink, but for now I haven’t decided yet. I used to volunteer at the school before I got sick, but we’re half way through the school year, the positions are already filled. Maybe find a job somewhere, but where?
I swipe away the thoughts and try to concentrate on what I should do right now instead. Maybe I should clean up the family room and the kitchen a little bit, maybe my bedroom too, where everybody’s stuff seem to end up in these days. But I look at the clock again and change my mind. It’s not even 8:00 yet! And then I find it! I will stay in my bed and enjoy a few moment of doing nothing. Then I’ll have to do something for myself, a nice hot bath, or walk on the treadmill first and then take the nice hot bath, then drink a yummy hot chocolate by the warm fire of the fireplace while reading a good book.
This day will be mine to savor every free minute of it. So, I’m going to snooze a little bit more, and go on to pamper myself right after. You should probably do the same too. We all deserve it!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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