I feel sick.I'm dizzy and in addition to my usual pain in my spine, my muscles hurt as if I ran a marathon. What really happened is that I had to park my car kinda far when I went to David's band concert 2 days ago. I had to walk for about 5 mins to get to the auditorium.
It was sunny and I was hot. Soon I could see David and Natalie walking way ahead of me as I was slowing down more and more with each step. I could feel that I had difficulty catching my breath. Once again I was reminded of how important it is to have the appropriate balance in order to have everything functioning normal in our bodies.
Chemo causes low red cell counts, among other unpleasant things. My low hemoglobin, translates to less amount of red cells "trapping" valuable oxygen. Less oxygen plus low platelets and low hematocrit, means I'm anemic so I get dizzy and I huff and puff like an old train engine when I walk over 5 secs. Great, isn't it!
My life has changed so much ever since this has happened. It's been a year and a half now that I've been going under treatment. I feel my body slowly shutting down. Every time a new symptom pops us, I feel I've lost another fight.
Now I'm in bed, barely having the strength to get up and do anything. I just want to rest, but I feel guilty, as if I'm giving up while I have so many people depending on me. That on its own scares me the most. What will happen to all those people who depend on me? I don't have the right to rest, I have no right to give up.
I'm so tired...
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Mesothelioma Cancer Awareness
A message from our friends at http://www.asbestos.com/
Mesothelioma is a rare and aggressive cancer. One of the primary mesothelioma causes is asbestos exposure. The cancer develops in the mesothelium, a protective membrane that lines three body cavities: the thoracic cavity (pleura), abdominal cavity (peritoneum) and the heart sac (pericardium).
A mesothelioma patient’s prognosis, or the probable course and outcome of a disease’s influence on the body, is influenced by numerous factors. Since a mesothelioma diagnosis often occurs once the cancer has progressed to later stages of development, prognosis is typically poor. However if a patient is diagnosed before the cancer has spread or elects to undergo treatment to combat the cancer, their prognosis may improve.
Asbestos is a naturally occurring toxic mineral that was commonly used throughout the 20th century in thousands of products and many industries. Asbestos is naturally resistant to heat and fire, making it ideal for use in insulation. The mineral was often used in insulation and the fine, flexible fibers were frequently mixed with cement and woven into fabrics. Exposure to asbestos can result in the development of serious illnesses such as malignant mesothelioma, lung cancer and asbestosis.
Like many people before me, I decided to share my thoughts and feelings as written in my personal journal, and also in e-mails I've sent to my family and friends, while struggling with breast cancer. So, if it sounds familiar, please don't fret! I promise that you got the original first, and then it was posted here just so that I don't have to re-write things. Lazy, I know! ;-)
Mesothelioma Cancer Awareness
A message from our friends at http://www.asbestos.com/
Mesothelioma is a rare and aggressive cancer. One of the primary mesothelioma causes is asbestos exposure. The cancer develops in the mesothelium, a protective membrane that lines three body cavities: the thoracic cavity (pleura), abdominal cavity (peritoneum) and the heart sac (pericardium).
A mesothelioma patient’s prognosis, or the probable course and outcome of a disease’s influence on the body, is influenced by numerous factors. Since a mesothelioma diagnosis often occurs once the cancer has progressed to later stages of development, prognosis is typically poor. However if a patient is diagnosed before the cancer has spread or elects to undergo treatment to combat the cancer, their prognosis may improve.
Asbestos is a naturally occurring toxic mineral that was commonly used throughout the 20th century in thousands of products and many industries. Asbestos is naturally resistant to heat and fire, making it ideal for use in insulation. The mineral was often used in insulation and the fine, flexible fibers were frequently mixed with cement and woven into fabrics. Exposure to asbestos can result in the development of serious illnesses such as malignant mesothelioma, lung cancer and asbestosis.
Πρωτα πρωτα θελω να σου πω οτι η επομενη σου δουλεια θα ειναι συγγραφεας.δευτερον να νιωθεις καλα με τον εαυτο σου σταματια μου.οχι οχι ενοχες.εχεις δειξει απιστευτη δυναμη και αδικεις περα για περα τον εαυτο σου να αισθανεσαι ετσι.αλλωστε οι υπολοιποι αυτο το καταλαβαινουν.και στο δειχνουν ο καθε ενας οπως μπορει και αισθανεται.εχεις φτασει νομιζω πολυ μακρια και να εισαι περηφανη γιαυτο.παντα σε σκεφτομαστε και σε αγαπαμε
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