Days go by slowly. I still feel weak from the last chemo, but I'm getting better. My mom and sister are going to arrive to Chicago today. They will stay at my mom's cousin for a couple of days and then head down to Ohio. I'm very excited to see them! I'm worried about having the house clean, but I can't do much. It will have to do.

Tomorrow I have another appointment at the oncologist's office for a last blood test before the surgery. I have a pre-admition test (EKG, physical etc.) at the hospital on Monday. I also have an appointment with the anaesthesiologist for a consultation. After that the clock will start ticking. I have to stop taking Coumadin on the 19th and replace it with some other medicine that I'm supposed to inject to myself. I'm hoping my mom can do it. She's an expert at giving shots. I actually learned from her, long before I went to college.

I need to be at the hospital at 5:30 in the morning on Monday the 24th. The surgery is scheduled for 7:00 am. I'm still nervous, but I'm coping. Everyday I think about it, but as time goes by it gets to be less and less disturbing. I guess I'm getting used to the idea.

I know there's more to a person that a good body or a cute face, and people who fail to see this are living a dream, and it's not a good one either. They are up for a rude awakening as time goes by and their physical appearance changes, which is inevitable of course. I know I will still be me even with a changed body, only I will have learned a few things on the way. I can see it now.

Well I guess that's all for now. I have a few errands I need to run today. I'm hoping I can do a few things before I get really tired again.